Move #3

I seriously can't believe I'm writing this. I should be saying something entirely different. However it's not the case this time. We are moving to another building again. Yes, again. Why, you may ask. Well, let's just say we are forced to leave due to jerks or idiots as I like to call them, won't grow up and shut up! So, we are moving to a nicer and quieter place. In 6 mos. or so we will move to a house and say screw you to the apartment complex for good!! I'm done with their empty promises, I'm done with them not caring, and I'm done reporting or calling the damn cops! Which by the way are on my bad  list. I will never call them unless I have too! I'd shoot and ask questions later before I call them ever!! This whole process has been hell! I don't trust anyone ever!!! I will never take their word or anybody else for that matter. I'm done being taken advantage and I'm about done with apartment living. I hope that one day karma bites them in the royal butt!! That neighbors have something horrid happen to them and they get what comes to them ten times fold! Justice will be served one way or the other. Ugh!!! Now the packing begins!!!! Stay tune....

Not enough words

There's not enough words to describe how I feel. Honestly, if I had any I'm not sure if they'd be good ones or appropriate ones to say out loud. There's times in my life that I don't know why I put up with so much crap from people. I can honestly say that I'm perplexed. I can't seem to figure it out. Is it that I'm too kind? Is that I'm too of a push over? Maybe I'm not a confrontational person. Whatever the reasons are I assure you, that's all going to change! Cause of this day on I'm not, and will not put up with it!! I'm done with getting used, getting stepped on and being mistreated. Trust for some have been broken. Im done with liars, and users. It's unreal how the closest ones are family. Those are the ones who you would never expect that from. I expect that from those who don't like me or maybe those who I disagree with. I've noticed if you disagree with someone, even on the slightest thing, bang they hate you and wish you agreed with them. Today in a world of confusion, chaos,and termoil, you'd think that those people would say okay, I may not agree but I value your opinion. Instead they want to argue, and get mad at you. So, what do you do? You discount what you believe in and what you think so you can agree with them. In the end, it's just not worth it. You lose yourself, your character, your pride and just being you. My advice is this. Doesn't matter what people think, say or do. What matters is what God says and what you do and think. Lean on his understandings and he will help you through the most difficult times. God bless and may God keep you always 

Crazy neighbors and Leaning on God

I know I haven't typed anything for a while so I thought I'd catch ya up on what's new. Well, two years ago we moved to flordia. We got jobs, and such. We eventually found a three bedroom place instead of staying in a two. We had only one neighbor and that was upstairs. The one next to us was their model. We currently have one next to us which hasn't been a problem thus far. We had some others next to us but they moved out. We have upstairs neighbors that moved in at the sametime we did. Kids and all was what we knew when we got into this place. However the kids haven't been horrible, just themselves. The adults have been more that one can deal with somedays. I don't get why people are rude, or obnoxious and or just plain ignorant. We have been thru the channels, the list of commands and such and still they are here. I hope management does something sooner than later. Of course you know never know around here. I think she cares but doesn't quite understand the full extent of what we have to put up with. I believe that they are working on something but not sure what it is or how long this process is gonna take exactly. I do hope it's soon and we can expect some results. 

Those of you that have followed my journey know what I've had to deal with these last few years. We've had some ups and downs. Some were good choices, some were bad. You look back and you realize that their choices you made weren't all up to you or your idea. People will give you advice, willingly or not. It's your choice whether you take it or not. Nobody can make you do something that affects your life or well being unless you give them permission to do so. So, you say, what's the moral of the story...well...the moral is...lean on God to handle your battles. In the end he will win the war. So, it's best sometimes to just breathe, and remove yourself from the situation and let it run its course. Thanks for stopping by and reading. 

No words

I have no words seems to be the new catch phrase. As my journey,adventure or perhaps leap of faith continues. I always seem to have these simple but truthful words to follow. In the last few months it has been quite a ride. Roads that were paved or so I thought turned out to be nothing but potholes and a bumpy road. Some started out out bumpy and ended up being  smooth. I'm sure your wondering still what does the catch phrase I have no words mean? Well, let's just say things, people and circumstances don't always turn out the way you thought they would be. And so, instead of expressing such words you find it easier to just say nothing at all and let God speak for you. I believe with all my heart still to this day that, God is much better at saying what needs to be said better than I could. Words attend to stay out there and it can never be returned back. "Actions speak louder than words they say!"well, perhaps they are. But actions can't be taken back either. It can permeate thru the air like oxygen. I have no words can have different meanings. Every situation is different. Every circumstances are different. People are different as well. So, it can mean that you'd like to say what's on your mind but your heart says no, it's not a good idea. So, most of us listen to our heart and say okay, I have no words to speak that is pleasing to God or to that particular person or thing. Sometimes it can be a good thing because nobody can dispute anything you say, because you didn't give them ammo to turn your words into something you didn't say or do. I guess that's what helps me thru different stitations. God will help me thru it :-) 

Here we go again..on the road

 

Here we go again..we are heading to Texas! I know I can't believe it either. But it will be a new adventure and new scenery ahead!! So,lots to look at and a new start. Look out here we come..heeyaw! Geedy up cowgirl!! :-) lol 

To be continued..Welp,it's been a few hours since I last posted this..so, here's the updated version now. Now we are in Arkansas the land of the cotton fields and well that's about it thus far. Pretty basic scenery so far,nothing's changed really. Back in Missouri we almost Welp we did get ran off the road..scary but it was alright in the end. Now I'm just bored to tears..literally and figuratively speaking!! I need a smartphone cause right now I gots a dumb phone!! Anyways that's about it, when I finish my adventure I will post this in the blog, but as of right now minus the no internet and the fact I can't post it has a lot of merit into why I can't! To be continued... :-) Sunday 21st

Well we arrived in Texas on Monday sept 22 2014!! So far big skies,lots of trees no sign of anything all that great yet..still waiting for something out of the ordinary. All I've seen is lone stars on bridges and byways..that's it. Still awaiting for something more interesting. To be continued once again! 

Texas sucks! It's not all it's cracked up to being and nothing here for me. No close family, no real friends that really care and they don't just say they care. I'm beginning to think we are over staying our welcome here. Im ready to leave this state and this situation. I hate it and wanna go home, wherever that it is. I miss the girls,Tracy and patty very much. Please dear God get us out soon!!! 

Part 4: the journey continues as we are now in flordia! I was in indiana for two weeks before arriving here in flordia. It's been a huge struggle and very tiring on oneself. We went thru thanksgiving without being together.. Hoping Christmas we will be. Mom found a job but doesn't start yet. Dad is awaiting to find out about his. Hoping to hear something this week!! I'm ready to be in our own place and my own room. I'm done sharing rooms with anybody. I'm done living with family and by their "rules" and such. To be continued... Stay tuned for what's next 

Part 5: the journey is about done now thankfully!!! We made to flordia as the above post mentioned. We are now in apartment and have the whole family under one roof.Which thankfully is a huge blessing. Dad found a job two weeks into being here and mom had one from the school. She also has intern this fall. I'm praying and hoping that it works out to be much more in the end and that I get s job as well. 

Part 6: reflecting from the journeys that we were on I'm amazed on how we made it and how we managed to stay sane and be okay. I've learned a lot on this journey about faith,people, and about who you can rely on and who you can't. There are moments that honestly I thought it was never going to end. I thought or I was thinking I can't do this anymore,being stressed, tired, worrying and just ready to give up and say to Hell with it all!! But I couldn't just do that. Even though I wanted to, I didn't have it in me to just say enough is enough. There's times I'm thankful for close friends who stuck by me and helped me get thru these most difficult times and struggles and hardships. I don't know what I'd do without them. I for and For most give all the glory and honor to God for getting me thru and giving me strength when I needed it the most. I have some hurt but I'm learning to let it go and realize that it's not worth it to hold on. Their not worth it! In the light of eternity does it really matter?! Well, yes and no. Yes it does because forgiving that person or persons or maybe yourself brings healing and renewal to your life. And no because their not the ones who determine where you go in the end how you get there.lean on God and good people who love the Lord with all their heart, soul and mind and let everything else just fade into the background. God bless you!! Thank for being on this journey with me whoever you are!!💕

Memories (grandma Ruby)

The Sadness of losing someone you love is something that leaves a emptiness inside. I lost a dear friend, who was a grandma to me. For 18 yrs. I've known her. I can remember when I first met her. I remember all the wonderful times I spent with her. Laughing, crying, sharing thoughts, and feelings of the day and the trips we went together. I can remember all of them like they were yesterday. A part of me will be empty and sad,but knowing she's with Jesus and Jack her husband, makes me feel better. I've been listening to a song called " Go rest high on the mountains" by Vince Gill. I love one of the verses in the song. Go to heaven a shoutin, and meet Jesus and his son! Wow, how incredible is that?! I know she wouldn't want us to be sad or to cry for her. Each day I hold onto the memories and the different times I spent with her. Those times I talked to her on the phone. I always could count on her to let me vent,or just say hello! I could tell her something and she would keep it to herself if I asked her. And the same vasa versa! I know she's in a much better place, and there's times I might not understand why she went before I was ready, but I do know she was ready to see Jesus and to be pain free. I can only imagine what her face expression was when she entered heaven and seen Jesus and those who passed on before her. I'm sure she's telling them all kinds of things and having a good time being free and alive! I can see her dancing and wondering what she is doing right now and how she is feeling. And I'm sure Christ told her, well done, my good and faithful servant! One day I will hear those words and see her face to face! I look forward to it. But in the mean time, I have her memories and pictures to match. Will miss her very much! Love u grandma!!! ❤❤❤ thanks all for reading! Have a blessed day. Don't forget Jesus loves you too!! And so do I! ❤❤

 

Something to ponder...

'To get something you never had, you have to do 

something you never did.'   When God takes something from your grasp, He's 

not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. 

 Concentrate on this sentence... 'The will of God will never take you where 

the Grace of God will not protect you.'

I thought this was a good quote. I had gotten this in a forward that someone had sent me and i liked this, so i thought i would share this with you all.. 

The last part it  says that if it's the will of God then whatever you do or wherever he takes you he will always protect you and watch over you. When God takes something away from you it's for a reason. Sometimes it's to teach us something he has been wanting to show us and was to busy to sit down and listen to him, or and it could be God wants to remove all obstacles that may hender you from doing something or going somewhere that he wants you to do or go. After all God knows whats best for you and he knows the feature! 

Isn't funny how God works! I had typed this out 5yrs. Ago and yet it still today, speaks to me!! God is good! amen!! :-)