No words

I have no words seems to be the new catch phrase. As my journey,adventure or perhaps leap of faith continues. I always seem to have these simple but truthful words to follow. In the last few months it has been quite a ride. Roads that were paved or so I thought turned out to be nothing but potholes and a bumpy road. Some started out out bumpy and ended up being  smooth. I'm sure your wondering still what does the catch phrase I have no words mean? Well, let's just say things, people and circumstances don't always turn out the way you thought they would be. And so, instead of expressing such words you find it easier to just say nothing at all and let God speak for you. I believe with all my heart still to this day that, God is much better at saying what needs to be said better than I could. Words attend to stay out there and it can never be returned back. "Actions speak louder than words they say!"well, perhaps they are. But actions can't be taken back either. It can permeate thru the air like oxygen. I have no words can have different meanings. Every situation is different. Every circumstances are different. People are different as well. So, it can mean that you'd like to say what's on your mind but your heart says no, it's not a good idea. So, most of us listen to our heart and say okay, I have no words to speak that is pleasing to God or to that particular person or thing. Sometimes it can be a good thing because nobody can dispute anything you say, because you didn't give them ammo to turn your words into something you didn't say or do. I guess that's what helps me thru different stitations. God will help me thru it :-) 

Here we go again..on the road

 

Here we go again..we are heading to Texas! I know I can't believe it either. But it will be a new adventure and new scenery ahead!! So,lots to look at and a new start. Look out here we come..heeyaw! Geedy up cowgirl!! :-) lol 

To be continued..Welp,it's been a few hours since I last posted this..so, here's the updated version now. Now we are in Arkansas the land of the cotton fields and well that's about it thus far. Pretty basic scenery so far,nothing's changed really. Back in Missouri we almost Welp we did get ran off the road..scary but it was alright in the end. Now I'm just bored to tears..literally and figuratively speaking!! I need a smartphone cause right now I gots a dumb phone!! Anyways that's about it, when I finish my adventure I will post this in the blog, but as of right now minus the no internet and the fact I can't post it has a lot of merit into why I can't! To be continued... :-) Sunday 21st

Well we arrived in Texas on Monday sept 22 2014!! So far big skies,lots of trees no sign of anything all that great yet..still waiting for something out of the ordinary. All I've seen is lone stars on bridges and byways..that's it. Still awaiting for something more interesting. To be continued once again! 

Texas sucks! It's not all it's cracked up to being and nothing here for me. No close family, no real friends that really care and they don't just say they care. I'm beginning to think we are over staying our welcome here. Im ready to leave this state and this situation. I hate it and wanna go home, wherever that it is. I miss the girls,Tracy and patty very much. Please dear God get us out soon!!! 

Part 4: the journey continues as we are now in flordia! I was in indiana for two weeks before arriving here in flordia. It's been a huge struggle and very tiring on oneself. We went thru thanksgiving without being together.. Hoping Christmas we will be. Mom found a job but doesn't start yet. Dad is awaiting to find out about his. Hoping to hear something this week!! I'm ready to be in our own place and my own room. I'm done sharing rooms with anybody. I'm done living with family and by their "rules" and such. To be continued... Stay tuned for what's next 

Part 5: the journey is about done now thankfully!!! We made to flordia as the above post mentioned. We are now in apartment and have the whole family under one roof.Which thankfully is a huge blessing. Dad found a job two weeks into being here and mom had one from the school. She also has intern this fall. I'm praying and hoping that it works out to be much more in the end and that I get s job as well. 

Part 6: reflecting from the journeys that we were on I'm amazed on how we made it and how we managed to stay sane and be okay. I've learned a lot on this journey about faith,people, and about who you can rely on and who you can't. There are moments that honestly I thought it was never going to end. I thought or I was thinking I can't do this anymore,being stressed, tired, worrying and just ready to give up and say to Hell with it all!! But I couldn't just do that. Even though I wanted to, I didn't have it in me to just say enough is enough. There's times I'm thankful for close friends who stuck by me and helped me get thru these most difficult times and struggles and hardships. I don't know what I'd do without them. I for and For most give all the glory and honor to God for getting me thru and giving me strength when I needed it the most. I have some hurt but I'm learning to let it go and realize that it's not worth it to hold on. Their not worth it! In the light of eternity does it really matter?! Well, yes and no. Yes it does because forgiving that person or persons or maybe yourself brings healing and renewal to your life. And no because their not the ones who determine where you go in the end how you get there.lean on God and good people who love the Lord with all their heart, soul and mind and let everything else just fade into the background. God bless you!! Thank for being on this journey with me whoever you are!!💕